I've sometimes wondered what drew me to this story. I think this quote from Twilight says a lot about my state of mind when I first read it.
"About three things I was absolutely positive. First, Edward was a vampire. Second, there was part of him — and I didn’t know how potent that part might be — that thirsted for my blood. And third, I was unconditionally and irrevocably in love with him."
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 9, p.195
You see shortly before reading Twilight my best friend, my boyfriend broke my heart. I knew from the start, he wasn't who I had ever pictured myself with, and maybe not who I would have ever planned to fall in love with, but like Bella somehow I found myself unconditionally and irrevocably in love with him. So, watching Bella's story unfold I was there silently cheering for her and Edward.
Years have passed now and all is well. I guess Bella and I got both got our happy endings. Mine was a different happy ending then I had dreamed my dreamiest dreams of but happy none the less. As for my "him"... he too is out living the life he was meant to live. In my heart of hearts I am happy he is finding his true self.
But as I continued on through the book I found different pieces of me in many of the characters, like Alice and Esme, but even more to my surprise other characters like:
Edward,"I’m stronger than I thought. It’s nice to know."
Because aren't we all. And when you finally know it the world is a lot less scary and life seems much more manageable.
Charlie, LOL!
"Wait… Which one is Edwin?"
This is totally the mom part of me! I just can't keep all my kids friends straight!
And even Jasper, "I can feel what you’re feeling now — and you are worth it."
Oh, Jasper! I think that is one thing so many people forget, we are worth it!
And yet as the story goes on and we see Bella's heart shatter... Jacob fall in love... The pain and heartache of secrets...The ability to love unconditionally...The meaning of what family really is... and that somehow things always work out the way they should. How can you not love that?
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